We're already 3 months into 2019, wow!
Welcome to my first blog post!
I'm using this first post to just jump right in! I'm saying goodbye to 2018, because it was a wild one...
I was faced with so many difficult situations, luckily I had my man and my best friend by my side. But I spent a majority of the year feeling really down/depressed.
I was laid off from my first job out of college and it hurt.
I also kept really quiet about it, I’m stubborn. I don’t like accepting help from people and want to fix everything on my own. I know this is a horrible mindset to have and I’m working on changing it.
But yes, it hurt mentally, physically, emotionally, and financially.
Mentally because the process that I had to deal with after the fact, was long-I got another job after 7 months of searching, applying, interviewing, and repeating. I was discouraged beyond belief. I felt as though my degree had been a waste of time( and I busted my ass to get it so that was a shitty feeling). I felt like I was screwed over by my previous employer-I’d worked there for almost 5 years.
Physically because I tend to carry my stress in physical ways- headaches, lack of sleep (tossing and turning all night), sometimes my body physically aches...it’s bad y’all.
Emotionally, the day my manager told me my last day would be in 3 weeks, I walked through the door of my apartment, ran to my room and just cried. I felt so defeated.
Financially, for obvious reasons- one being that I found out later that my pay was significantly less than what it should have been, considering I have a bachelors degree, but I was fresh out of college when I accepted that position and didn’t know any better. Because I was being underpaid, I didn’t really have the ability to save money, therefore, had no money in my savings account.
I say all that, to say this, it eventually gets better.
Realistically you will not be unemployed forever, eventually you will get over your ex, eventually whatever you’re going through, will pass! I had to start viewing all of those “losses” and “No reply-unfortunately your application wasn’t chosen to move forward,” emails as a sign that what ever it was, just wasn’t for me.
In the end, I ended up with a better job. Better mentally, physically, emotionally, and financially. Okkuuurrr!!
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